I sometimes drift back to my earlier years and wonder at how quickly we age. I tend to make comparisons with where my children are now and where I was at their age.
T and K are now older than I was when Andrew was born. Amie, later this month, will be the age I was when Andrew was born. I’m not sure how old Jessie is. Ha! 31 or 32? Oops! Scratch that 32. I had to check her FB page to be sure. Andrew will be 23 in a few days, the age I was when I thought my life was in order and I knew everything there was to know. You do the math while I let you in on a little secret. I was wrong about knowing it all.
My parents always seemed old to me when I was young even though they weren’t. When I grew older and returned home for a visit after a long period of time – they seemed much older and more frail than they did the last time I had seen them.
I wonder…Do my children see me in the same light? Do I look, behave, and seem older to them when we have only had phone, FB, and text conversations between us for a few months? Hopefully, I don’t seem frail. Frail is such an old person word isn’t it? They will all tell you I am forgetful. I blame that on all those kids. I can’t always remember who I told what.
It’s a jolt when you realize how fast the time has gone. There are a lot of should have’s. I should have exercised more, eaten healthier, read more, written more, played more, and followed more dreams. I should have managed my money better and saved more for retirement. I should have made more time for family and friends. Hindsight comes too late for those who wait.
I should talk to my children and warn them about these inevitable twists and turns in life – but would they listen? I think not. I know I never listened hard enough. I always thought there would be time.
Note to my children…
Getting older sneaks up on you like a cat on a mouse. Take advantage of your youth, while always planning for your future. You have to keep one eye open all the time. Get your eggs in one basket and take life by the horns. Don’t let life take you by surprise – unless it’s a good surprise! Mom